The Wound

Time has passed and many years elapsed
Since I walked upon that ground
That abandoned me wounded and alone
Now visions haunt me as my life dance carries on

Can I reach that place so deep inside me?
Where even the brave fear to go
A place so deep and hidden
It has taken years to open

So young and innocent
Dancing under the Acacia tree
Imagining a life of joy
Cut so deep by those I trusted

Left to find my way
In a world so foreign and new
No one to help me learn the path
Only harsh commands to follow

No Mother to guide my childish dreams
I can not reach for help or ask advice
I can not get a hug or be told I’m loved
Just guided by hands of the enemy

Can I find the courage to face this hurt
And label it for what it is
Abuse, mental, spiritual, physical
Once identified, no longer my adversary

This monster I will breach
And face with valor so intense
Because those I love
Deserve the whole of me!

Isolated Hill

Standing upon an isolated hill
Seeing those I love, drive away
The pain in my heart may not kill
But my soul will ache for years

I am alone and secluded here
No touch to heal my wounds
Only words, pinches and sneers
That binds my spirit in hell

I beg to be released from this nightmare
Silent screams fill my days
Please come and take me home
Don’t leave me so alone

Tears are soundless as I weep
Waiting for the kiss that heals
Those lips will never touch my cheek
My dreams are filled with fear

My ache turns to anger
My screams, go unheard
Left alone, but I will not die
My soul has hidden this burden deep

I hide myself deep inside
The fear, the ache so dangerous
I do not want to stand upon that isolated hill
To watch you leave me once again!

Boarding School Survivor

I have been dealing a lot with issues related to my boarding school experiences. It has been difficult and encouraging. I have found that I am not alone! For many years I felt very isolated because I thought that I was the only one who suffered. Recently I was able to acknowledge that I was the subject of mental, spiritual and physical abuse. The way to healing is allowing the Lord to help me release the poisonous memories and speaking the truth in love about what happened. My screams for help went unheard as a child, now my voice can never be silent. I must speak, to heal, to let others know they are not alone and to protect the nest generation of MK’s.

Hyder News April 2011

It has been so long since I have written a newsletter. With the age of Facebook and Twitter, I forget that many of you have not heard something personal from us in a while. To keep up with us follow our blog here: http://hyderpak5.blogspot.com/



We are currently in Quantico, Virginia with the Marine Corps. We have 13 more months here before heading to Oahu, Hawaii for our next assignment in June 2012.



Paul moved from TBS, The Basic School, to The Beast in October of last year. The Beast is the largest battalion in the Marine Corps and incorporates many units including the Marine Corps Band here on base. He loves his job and enjoys getting dirty and being hands on with his marines. Paul now holds the record for the number of times in one day a Chaplain has gone through the gas chamber. Just recently, he led a young marine to Christ and is excited to be discipling this young man. Please continue to pray for his ministry with the Marines.



I am busy homeschooling and discipling our three girls. The twins, Kaye and Maddy, are now thirteen and Ally just turned eleven. As you can imagine we have lots of teenage hormones flying around at the moment. The twins are very active in our Church’s Youth Group. They are excited to be going to Crossroads Youth Camp this summer. Ally is looking forward to her second soccer season this Fall. Please pray for them to keep their eyes and hearts on Jesus during this new period of their lives.



We just had a short but wonderful visit with Aprile’s Mom. Alice is still busy with ministry in Kenya. She will head back to Africa on Thursday. Please pray for her safety as she travels and the ministry in Kenya. ACO has grown a lot in the last few years and is blossoming into a new era with Aprile’s brother, Tom at the helm. Keep up with their news at: http://tomandkerryinkenya.blogspot.com/



Prayer Requests:



1.That our final year of ministry here will be blessed and fruitful.
2.Our Parenting of young teens will be guided with wisdom and understanding.
3.The girls, Kaye, Maddy and Ally will keep their eyes and hearts on Jesus
4.That the Lord will be preparing the road ahead of us in Oahu
■Ministry in Oahu
■Friends for the girls and us in Oahu

Hyder Update 2/11

The life of a military family is never boring and always moving . Everyday we wake up and are reminded of those we know and care for who are in harms way.
This week the thunder of artillery fire shook our house all day, as our Marines prepared for the days ahead.

For those unfamiliar with ordinance fire, the experience is one you will never forget. When the artillery is firing my walls literally shake and everything rattles. It is a constant reminder that our Marines are training for battle.

Please pray for Jason one of our young RP's who is now in Afghanistan with his Chaplain. Jason is a young RP tasked with protecting and supporting a Chaplain in a hostile environment. He must not only look out for his own life, but must put the Chaplain's life before his own. I will always be grateful for Paul’s RP’s in Iraq who protected him while he was ministering to those in need.

As the only members in military service who are not authorized to carry weapons, chaplains must rely on their religious programs specialists (RP) for protection in theaters of operation. Although, the primary mission of an RP is to provide administrative and technical support for the chaplain, while forward deployed, RP’s also provide personal protection for the chaplain. RP’s are the right arm of the chaplain.


Please pray for us at it is again time for us to talk with the Detailer about our next duty station. Paul needs to go to a ship for this assignment. We are looking at the possibility of him going to an aircraft carrier. This would mean he would be deployed about 7 months a year.

Please Pray:
For Wisdom as we talk with the Detailer
That the Lord will prepare the road ahead of us, for ministry, friends and home.
That our children will be able to move easily as it is getting much harder to leave friends.